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 At least I worked out how to do my total chapter rewrite (the wonky riddle one). Just have to do it - but I will first go through the shit version, make note of anything that has to be in there before deleting the lot and doing it from scratch. It's exactly what I need at this point and as Pat's away tomorrow may have a go tomorrow night. 

Chapter rewrite started well then I ran out of steam but worked out why so should progress today. Went to solicitor's and Wayne's and estate agents today so quite dynamic. Will meet on Sunday to walk dogs and maybe do a few things in house before valuation on Monday. Starting to feel slightly guilty for fighting my corner re: will as I was under the impression there was more and that my sister would be able to retire. Now not sure about that. Wayne, our old money man, had difficulty meeting my gaze when we took death cert round, which is interesting. He must know we're much better off financially now he isn't creaming off those large fees 

It's weird how much slicker Setup 3 is now I've decluttered it. Having the line mixer feed all my poly synths into the 505 makes so much sense. Have even used its monitor for the DD-20 geving me ambient looping too. I fed the DRM-1 through the BOUM and VF-1 and it sounds incredible. All my drumming needs with Cirklon driving it, perfect. Now it's Setup 2 that's the poor relation, which is interesting.

Saturday has a nice play on setup 1. Later on Pat's watching some shite police thing on TV while I'm trying to write. Not only does she watch this noisy, obtrusive shit but she keeps talking to me about it while I'm trying desperately not to engage cos I really despise this kind of program. Then, after saying she's going going to bed she then stays up so long it just isn't worth trying to do anything. There is a promise of some totally alone time next week though, the dog going south with her. We'll see if that actually happens.

Monday and I got the Blofeld connected to the Osmose and remembered how much I like it and how much poly AT brings the Blo to life. I also had an issue with the GR-1 and they tell me I have to reflash and that I must always shut down manually. Told them screw that I'll go back to the old firmware that worked just fine. Something to do with old Linux shite apparently. Will try and get it done tomorrow but will move it away to setup 2 for the time being so the Blo can take its place. Contemplating Wed/Thu in the studio and maybe even doing a video jam if I get anything good going. 

Pat went south a day early hoping to miss traffic. So I have the free-est week to wallow in for a very long time. Starting my adventure with a good cup of coffee, chocolate and calm contemplation.

Well, yesterday seemed to go pretty well. I got through a fair bit of drink, including finishing that first bottle of Jura 12 (I was wise enough to get another). The thing I recorded sounds OK on first listen but I didn't note its (Cirklon-generated) name so it's stored by date only until I power on later. Sun is shining and I may go for a walk to clear the old noggin. Then I suspect I'll make like Peter Baumann and repeat, repeat... thawed out chilli for tonight but might get curry, not sure what opening times are xmas day.

Today went v welll. Setup 1, like. Now stoned and watching John Wicks 4, waiting for new gummy to kick in. Stopped watching the film as I'd either seen it before or is was so predictable that it seemed like I had. Don't recall what else I watched, roamed Netflix probably but can't remember any highlights. Did some novel work.

Today's christmas and I plan to do the same as the last two days, if my body can take it. Hopefully I can get a curry later from Sangam. Think one half gummy for today as having a second one yesterday didn't really touch the sides, so to speak. 

Did a video, nothing too coherent. Had fun though noodling. I'm wondering how it might be to work unstoned occasionally. Radical eh? Got a fair chunk of novel done but feel like an early night. 

Pretty sure Mozart died on this day (Dec 5th), well not this specific one.

Today was a good Friday.No idea if this any quality but will listen tomorrow

https://wilyepeyote.bandcamp.com/album/moonbow-passing

Yeah, nowt special but as some guy paid money for it, seems wrong to delete from bc as usual. 

Monday we talked to funeral guy then went to house and started going through stuff, cancelling things and informing people. Hope to get death cert this week and kick rest of it off. Funeral next Tuesday if all goes to plan. 

Talked to priest today, going to do the death certificate Thursday morning at which point we tell banks, solicitors etc. Life still not really ticking along properly but we're all coping. Lisa and Jan upset still showing how close they were. 

PRS is a little down compared to last few years but considerably higher than I'd have expected at this stage. 

Wednesday and some studio time. Spirit mixer dead, which is a real downer. Did some looping P3 patterns playing Perfourmer. Sounded good. 

Sending everything into RC-505 is something I should've done ages ago. Dead Spirit may help reduce clutter. Doing good shit today (Friday_

https://wilyepeyote.bandcamp.com/album/barking-at-squirrels-and-other-pursuits

Now then. It's Monday, funeral tomorrow. Still feels a bit surreal but I'm sure tomorrow will bring it home. PRS payment today, will use most for tax bill I think. Bought the latest Warrington Runcorn album and just listening. I like how he keeps it simple but classy and never overcooks, which is a skill I wish I had but never will ;) He only goes wrong with clunky voice samples in the track "The People Matter", which is a cool track otherwise. 

I must go listen to whatever Tim and I recorded on Saturday. Will definitely be overcooked, undercooked and burnt to a frantic crisp in that, hehe. 

My plans for today are to trim my beard, wash my hair and see if my suit pants still fit. Probably a bit late to panic if they don't. Continued working on Beer and got back to the riddle chapter that I want to totally rewrite. Pat says she's off south Wednesday so may get a day to indulge myself. Thursday is solicitor day, moved from Friday, which is good.

Funeral went as well as it could. Priest spoke well and we got some nice tales from Winnie later. Cousin Gary came and his mum Helen and we got more tales of mum that made us smile/wince. They ordered way too many sandwiches though so we all took some home. Good to see John and Jan's friends and I think mum would've been happy with her sendoff. Coffin very heavy between four of us on the way in so glad some funeral guys gave subtle help carrying to grave or Jack and I may have struggled. 

Tomorrow Pat goes south so I have a day free which I plan to use indulgently. 

Another month, mother still dying.... then does, finally

Yeah we're into December now and life is still in this weird limbo state. Doesn't feel like I've done much of any value in October or November other than edit "From Beer to Eternity" which is in far better shape than it was before. I'm in the final third and have skimmed to the end to remind myself how it goes. There are some opportunities remaining to sort a few things out before I contemplate "Liminal Entity" and what that may or may not need. The hard one still outstanding is "After Life" but I have a much clearer idea of how that should go now, having explained a few of my ideas to myself about how it all works. 

I'm still thinking of getting the MPC Live III, purely for the idea of a complete environment for working on songs with a definite structure and flow rather than all the looping things I've done for so long. None are in stock at the moment though but I'm watching. Of course I'll throw myself into it and either totally regret it or feel a good chunk of the studio has become less useful. All this cos I really could not be bothered with the Live/Laptop setup I already have but which I haven't knuckled down and learned. Hmmm.

It's Tuesday and we got the news that mum is in a new stage of her EOL process. The syringe driver is back after just one day and she's in bed not wanting to get out just to float off with the increased meds. Of course by the afternoon she's awake and wanting everything again and now. I'm doing a shift tomorrow so I expect her doing cartwheels around the garden. The doc keeps expressing surprise she's still alive. They sorted 7 night cover though which is a relief. I was gonna go walking this week with Tony but now think I probably won't. Maybe she'll pop off overnight, it's no longer possible to guess. Oh, I pre-ordered the MPC Live III. Decided wtf, no point hanging around as we might all be dead tomorrow (but mum still alive, of course). Today I drank a bottle of beer and worked on a Keystep/Wavestate project and associated Octatrack grooves. My eventual plan is to capture all the prime bits in the MPC and arrange them there since I clearly will never bother to do it in Ableton. Let's see if this plan works out any better than the last...

She died Wednesday evening, peacefully and in her sleep. We didn't get there in time but stayed until nurse then funeral directors came. Pat and I got home maybe 02:30 and didn't sleep much but we're through it now apart from the admin. Funeral should be before Christmas then there will be lots of house clearance to do.

We saw this moonbow on the way to Lisa's after mum died

Blog entries from this point may become more normal.