Another month, mother still dying.... then does, finally

Yeah we're into December now and life is still in this weird limbo state. Doesn't feel like I've done much of any value in October or November other than edit "From Beer to Eternity" which is in far better shape than it was before. I'm in the final third and have skimmed to the end to remind myself how it goes. There are some opportunities remaining to sort a few things out before I contemplate "Liminal Entity" and what that may or may not need. The hard one still outstanding is "After Life" but I have a much clearer idea of how that should go now, having explained a few of my ideas to myself about how it all works. 

I'm still thinking of getting the MPC Live III, purely for the idea of a complete environment for working on songs with a definite structure and flow rather than all the looping things I've done for so long. None are in stock at the moment though but I'm watching. Of course I'll throw myself into it and either totally regret it or feel a good chunk of the studio has become less useful. All this cos I really could not be bothered with the Live/Laptop setup I already have but which I haven't knuckled down and learned. Hmmm.

It's Tuesday and we got the news that mum is in a new stage of her EOL process. The syringe driver is back after just one day and she's in bed not wanting to get out just to float off with the increased meds. Of course by the afternoon she's awake and wanting everything again and now. I'm doing a shift tomorrow so I expect her doing cartwheels around the garden. The doc keeps expressing surprise she's still alive. They sorted 7 night cover though which is a relief. I was gonna go walking this week with Tony but now think I probably won't. Maybe she'll pop off overnight, it's no longer possible to guess. Oh, I pre-ordered the MPC Live III. Decided wtf, no point hanging around as we might all be dead tomorrow (but mum still alive, of course). Today I drank a bottle of beer and worked on a Keystep/Wavestate project and associated Octatrack grooves. My eventual plan is to capture all the prime bits in the MPC and arrange them there since I clearly will never bother to do it in Ableton. Let's see if this plan works out any better than the last...

She died Wednesday evening, peacefully and in her sleep. We didn't get there in time but stayed until nurse then funeral directors came. Pat and I got home maybe 02:30 and didn't sleep much but we're through it now apart from the admin. Funeral should be before Christmas then there will be lots of house clearance to do.

We saw this moonbow on the way to Lisa's after mum died

Blog entries from this point may become more normal.